You are not forgotten

I am so grateful for the gospel of our Savior, Jesus Christ. I am so grateful for the love that is felt and the light that can be seen a midst all of the darkness. President Uchtdorf's testimony to the Relief Society really hit me today. I am so full of happiness that I just want to just go out and share it. I want to serve a mission so bad!

Life is beautiful, don't wait for your golden ticket to come to be happy. Be happy now!

Happiness is something we create

Some believe in destiny, some believe in fate but I believe that happiness is something we create. 

Life has been a little less than exciting the past year, that's for sure! I lost control of my life for so long and I'm finally taking it back! :) These last couple of days have been the absolute best!

Friday: Hunger games with Mon and Sushi with Austin and Adam

Saturday: Festival of Colors with Mon, Austin, Adam and Brad

Sunday: Hit up two wards, made dinner and played Frisbee golf with Austin

Monday: Bowling and Sushi with Austin and Mon

Tuesday: Apartment searching, mall and dinner with Austin

You might be asking who in the world Austin is. Well, let me tell you. He's kind of a weird person. jk. He's wonderful! We have decided that we are official bosom friends. He's absolutely awesome and makes me laugh harder than anyone! He's very therapeutic! I kinda love that kid! We have an awesome and yet very weird friendship. We are basically each others wing people for everything. No....there is no sort of romance thing going on! :)

Sushi

I think I have a problem. I may or may not be addicted to Sushi, is that bad? I have had it twice this week and would definitely go back for thirds this weekend!

Bacon Crunch Roll @ Happy Sumo!

Go! Right now!

This is how bad it is, the lovely person, named Aaron, that makes my rolls has already started to get to know me. In fact, yesterday we ordered a total of 5 rolls and he gave them to us all 50% off. 

What a nice guy...especially since I have the most stubborn of friends that don't let me pay.

Also, I'm so excited for the rest of this month. This weekend is going to be a blast!! Then it's conference weekend and instead of going to Arizona like I had planned, I will be going to New York! What What!!

Struggles

I have easy days and then I have hard days. Today, is definitely a hard day. Maybe it also doesn't help that I'm sick and did not go to church. First time I have missed and I'm definitely feeling the effects of it.

 It's some times so hard to not be angry. I don't understand anything. I don't understand how there can be so much love and so many wonderful memories and yet they are all clouded by all of the horrible things that happened and all of the horrible things that were said. It's hard to imagine that in a blink of an eye everything can go so sour so fast. How sacred covenants made can become so unimportant to some people and can be taken for granted. Most days I am great. Today, well, today I hurt. My mind keeps replaying all of the hurtful and piercing words that were said.  After hearing every day that I was not capable of being loved along with other hurtful things I still hoped that one day we would wake up from this nightmare and be the people that we were. Some days I miss my best friend, I miss when times were good. I miss when we laughed and could be completely open and vulnerable with each other and lay side by side talking about everything under the sun. It's hard to know that he's moved on so fast and could leave with no hesitation. 

I probably sound incredibly ungrateful and I'm sorry for that. I am so grateful for all of the opportunities that I have been given and for the amazing people that I have had the pleasure of letting into my life as of lately. I have some really incredible people in my life. I have two wonderful jobs and I have made many new changes in my life of things that I always wanted to do. I have every reason to be happy and grateful so I don't know what my problem is today.