Mistakes and Regrets, They're Memories Made.

Life is rough and mean sometimes. It can knock you down and break your heart. These last months have been possibly the worst months of my life but yet I have to feel grateful for everything that I have learned. I thought I had it good, I thought I knew what it meant to be happy. Then that day happens when you're told that it was all a lie and that it never was what you thought it was. It sucks to know that all of those memories were all a lie. I'm so tempted to be angry but I also can't help but feel a sense of relief now. A sense of relief that I don't have to suffer anymore. That I can learn to be me again and that I can grow and move on. That I can be uplifted and not dragged along. That I can be happy with the people that love me. Agency sucks when it is used to hurt others. I hate not being in control. I wish I could go back to before all of this happened....but then I might not become who the Lord wants me to be. After all, your future is as bright as your faith.

It is finally over.

Growing Up

So, as you now know...I have a way cool job. Yesterday was rather interesting and incredibly busy! Had audits and right when I did, Yardi (a system we use to input tenant information, payments, etc.) stopped working! I know this means nothing to you but it was kind of a big deal! Also, I've realized that if I skip lunch, that adds up to more hours for the week :)....it's great, really. Anyway, so I'm pretty excited that I get to dress up for work every day instead of having to go way gross. Again, I know this probably seems really vain for some people BUT I have a big girl job and I love it! I don't like very many jobs that I have ever had and I can genuinely say that I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this one! This is what I get to go into work looking like! P.S. those new pants from Trendy Xchange: $9..this picture is crappy but trust me, it's a steal! :)

A little bit stronger

Current top favorite songs:

1. Somebody That I Used to Know-Walk Off the Earth

2. A Little Bit Stronger- Sara Evans

3. Stronger- Kelly Clarkson

4. A Thousand Years- Christina Perry

5. Waiting For the End- Linkin Park

6. The Cave- Mumford & Sons

7. Colours- Grouplove

8. Never Stop- Safetysuit

9. Adele- Set Fire to the Rain

10. ANYTHING GARY ALLAN

I have been so incredibly blessed in so many ways. It's wonderful how much we are blessed when we strive so hard to do what's right. I am so grateful for the gospel and for the Atonement in my life. I am just so entirely grateful for everything! I just started a new job as an office manager at Remington apartments which are in Orem. I LOVE it!! It's definitely incredibly challenging and intimidating but it makes me really happy to work there. I have been truly blessed with finding that job and it feels like everything will work out. The Lord is just and He loves us all so incredibly much! He is the only way that I can be so happy during such times of trial. 

Life is beautiful and we can all do hard things.