Little Sisters

It's funny how I don't have a problem watching Trauma:Life in the ER and I love to see surgeries but when my little sister flies over her bike and smashes her face on the driveway/road pavement while her foot is still caught in the handle bars I freak out, and want to cry. While I was holding Liliana's hand and stroking her hair telling her to breathe I all of a sudden felt like Hailey (my roommate from last semester who gets queezy with blood) as I felt my eyes stinging and my sight getting blurry while I fought to keep my cool. I can't even imagine how I will be with my own children. Poor Liliana has had a very rough week. She is bruised all over and they think that she might have some bruising on her kidneys. The following day she is then admitted to the hospital because she couldn't stop throwing up and had a high fever. Later they found out that she also has Strept. I feel terrible that I'm so far away from her now. Oh how I love my little girl. Here are a few more pictures of the little ones

(top) Liliana reading to her twin Viviana (middle) Clara learning to play (bottom)Liliana reading a magazine while at the dentist office.

What a dream...

sigh.
Oh Frank Sinatra, you have definitely set the bar high. You're such a man and your romantic ways make me feel butterflies in my stomach and yet I have no one to feel butterflies over. You're good, you're very good. If only there were such a man out there...

My mouth hurts...still. Actually, it had stopped hurting and I was just taking the Penicillin but now the right side of my jaw/cheek is swollen and hurts pretty bad so I've had to take Vicodin again. I'm not such a fan of the side effects. I have hot flashes, mood swings and am ALWAYS dizzy...I'm mean c'mon..I'm not going through menopause. Not to mention there is a bump in my mouth; half is completely numb and the other half hurts. I can't fully close my mouth because I feel my entire jaw pulling super tight...kind of odd. I suppose I can't complain much because it could be worse. I'm just tired of feeling either so out of it or in pain. On a more happy note, I leave for Provo this Saturday! I'm super stoked for that and for Rexburg! I changed my schedule around a little..I had signed up for a guitar class but I just realized that my parents are going to have to take my guitar to me in August so I had to drop that class. I will have 17 credits this semester and will be working, yay for going crazy! My classes will be as follows:

1.Book of Mormon

2. English

3.Humanities:The Heroic Journey

4.Marriage

5.Real World Math

6.General Psychology

I am very pleased with the classes that I will be taking. I've also decided to speak to my advisor to see when I could apply for fast grad. I've decided to graduate early so then I can serve a mission, go to grad school and then go on to getting my doctorates. I figure the younger I am the more likely it will be for me to get my doctorates. We'll see how things play out. Also, I've fallen in love with a new song! O'child-Nevertheless..must give credit to Andy for telling me about it. Turns out he has such good taste in music! (: Anyway, listen to it and enjoy!

Dear Future Husband,

General Conference just passed and I thought a lot about you. It's funny how I always thought about the type of man that you would be; the qualities I wanted for you to have. With being caught up in how perfect I wanted you to be I forgot to think of the qualities that you would want me to have. I know you probably won't come for a while, although I wouldn't mind knowing who you are. Have I met you? I will make a few promises though. I promise to take care of you, love you and help you return to our Father in Heaven as well. I promise to trust you with my life and never hold back. I promise to care for our household and nurture our even more future children. I promise to support you in all church callings and life decisions. I promise that I will constantly try to further improve myself so that I might be the best wife/mother. Although I often wonder about you or who you might be, I'm not worried and I am not impatient. I know that I've already met you in the pre-existence and I'm excited to some day meet you again. I will remain worthy in all of my doings and hope that you will too so that one day we will make beautiful covenants with the Lord and be sealed for time and all eternity. Until meet again.

With Love,

Your Wife